Lyera Harem's journal
((Should go without saying, this is Lyera's IC journal kept in her bedroom. Unless you have access to her bedroom or have OOC permission, none of this is IC knowledge.))
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#1 Dear journal,
So tonight I've decided that I better record all that I do, seeing as I'll one day be a leader figure here in Lismore. At least that's what mom tells me all the time. "You better get your act together because one day you'll inherit the Zenko and then you can't just run away from all your problems like you always do." she tells me.
Yeah right. I bet at the last moment, Ike or Amy are going to change their minds about inheriting the faction and then I'll have to give up the position to them because I'm the youngest of them all. The whole firstborn and lastborn business is kind-of silly anyway, but if they can lead it better than I'd be able to then I guess I'll just have to be happy with that.
I know I've changed in a way. I feel more ready to accept responsibilities that I used to shy away from before, but I get the feeling that noone wants to give me any particularly important tasks because I've tended to be pretty timid about them before. Well I'll be sure to prove them wrong eventually.
Also, I kind of want to marry Shyama. I know right? Me, marry? It sounds like something one would hear in a fairy tale but I really do want to marry him! I think he might propose soon too, but I could also just be reading him wrong. I'll admit that part of the reason I want to marry him is so that my mother will approve of us having kids. I wonder what it's like, carrying them. Amy was pregnant untilnrelatively recently and she got herself a healthy baby daughter. I'm the aunt of the prettiest child I have seen ever! Maybe that'snwhy I want one too.
I've also managed to forget the baby's name. Typical. I guess that's yet another reason why I should be writing down the things that happen to me so I don't forget them all the time. I know it annoys a lot of people to have to tell me about things over and over again because they slip my mind and then I can't recall them again.
Anyway, I guess people will eventually be reading about my life and my thoughts so I guess I should introduce myself for the people that I don't personally know. My name is Lyera Harem, I am the thirdborn daughter of Amelie Rousseau Harem and Kain Harem. I am well over two meters tall, and I am a grayish dragoncat. My older siblings are the twins Ike and Amy Harem, two teal cannecs. I am the only one of my siblings who has shown any interest in the family business so far, and as far as I can tell, the only one of them who has spent most of her time at home. Ike has his alchemy, Amy has her... whatever it is that she's got, while I don't actually have any specific interests yet. I usually just spend my days studying and practicing my combat techniques with Shyama.
It must be a difficult task to train me too, I'd imagine. I don't use a traditional weapon actually; I use a parasol to fight with, partially because of my water allergy, partially because I've always got it around with me. It's a difficult 'weapon' to use, but I like to think that I've got some skills with it.
I at one point considered asking someone else for more traditional training, but the first time that I did, I got kind of scared away from it. It was back when I was a bit younger and probably more timid too, before Lismore broke up in the war and ended up in the sky.
I wanted to learn how to defend myself, so I was interested in learning from Dru. But she demonstrated a really scary technique which I reacted to, and that apparently ruined it. When I asked her about it, she refused me on the grounds that I wasn't fighter material because of the way I reacted to her technique. I remember this particularly well because it frustrated me, and she still frustrates me a lot even though we don't actuwlly speak together anymore. She's just got this way of behaving that makes it unbearable for me to really interact with her. She treats pretty much everyone as little children who do not know anything, and she always has to be right even when she's not wrong. How other people can stand her is beyond me.
Honestly though, she's not the only one here with that problem. My mom can be much the same, and that Valencia woman too. Lord Xian is very reasonable and I like him. The times that I interacted with him were very very fun. I just wish he'd be less busy, but I guess he's the lord so...
Anyway, I'm rambling a lot.
I'll probably be ranting a lot about people in my journal too. I think that they think that I'm slow and a little stupid which suits me just fine. The less people expect of me, the more I can surprise them with what I can do. I am actually pretty smart and observant. I just don't like to boast about it!
Shyama knows though. He's the only one who knows the real me, I feel. Mom and Dad knows a lot too, but he... it's just special! And whoever reads this in the future will get to know me too!
Anyway, I guess I should wrap it up. This entry got real long.
Point is, this is my journal.
Lyera H.
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#2 Dear journal,
So today I went to the library to do some studying and it was pretty alright. I'm wanting to learn mechanical engineering because honestly, I'm not really all that good at physical labour. Ironically, I'll be putting a lot of work into making machines. Lovely isn't it?
During one of the breaks I took from the books, I looked outside the window and saw this weird little fenramau kid at the baths wielding some kind of weird water magic. She seemed talented in the art. The girl was approached by a white sergal thing too, I noticed. They had a bit of a talk but I could tell that the girl was feeling a little uncomfortable. I wanted to go down there and make sure that everything was alright and that nothing...happened, but they split shortly after.
Then I laughed. I have no idea why I found it so amusing but I did! I guess I just love seeing other people interact with each other! The irony here being that I become pretty shy when doing the interacting with them myself.
Also, I forgot to mention in my previous entry what happened to my father. It's pretty important that this comes across because he got pretty severely injured. And it was my fault. We were under attack, I froze and he nearly died saving me from a strike. He's better now, but of course I still feel so bad and guilty for it. And of course he assures me that it's not my fault, but if I were a braver person then I would've been able to escape it.
I still have nightmares about it, but I guess it's good now he's healthy again. I won't let something like this happen again. As soon as I've got a grasp of engineering, I'm going to be learning medicine. I might even learn medicine first.
I do know one thing though: it has left me rather traumatized. I can't even look at blood anymore without getting a panic attack. Hopefully I'll get over it soon.
There's also my very crippling water allergy. If I ignore it like I did when Dad got injured, I apparently get really really sick. It's so hard to live with it. Drinking water is painful and difficult, I can barely keep myself clean because I can't bathe, I can't be out in the rain and I need shoes or socks to be outside.
I'll need to find a cure for it. Perhaps one of the Zenko alchemists can help me?
Anyway, I'm doing what I can to keep myself occupied. Mostly just learning about new things, reading, studying, training. Anything!
Speaking of other things... I haven't written about probably the cutest boy I've ever met, yet! His name is Leo and he is Zeela's sister. It's kind-of fun to antagonize him because he's the type that's so cautiously shy, and yet kind-of sort-of wants to be brave. And he's so awkward around girls for some reason. It's just the cutest thing ever. I think I actually might have scared him a little trying to be friendly. I gave him clothes at one point because well, quite frankly he looks horrible in the clothes he prefers to be in. I don't tell him that though!
I should probably antagonize him less.
Lyera H.
