So finally I put pen to paper to write about my life. Long as it has been so far and filled with many children, grandchildren and now great grandchildren I think it is never too late to write about what I do.
Seeing Yuna today reminded me of how wonderful and blessed our family is. Her son, my great grand son, is growing fast and may soon be ready to train in the art of fighting. I look forward to this more than I would admit to any one. My youngest daughter, Tiana, too is growing to that age already. Perhaps growing faster thanks to her rabbit blood. She seems to already be emulating my exercises and may be highly adept with the right guidance. Such thoughts make me proud.
Xahu grows and rules well over Lismore I feel. at times he may seem harsh to me with his judgements of others but Lismore remains peaceful and I must trust him
It is my own life though I tend to focus on. Now I am recovered from bearing Tiana into this world and the trials I had to endure to get to that point I am able to focus much more on my role, my calling. Keeping others safe makes me feel like I am doing something right in this world. I hope that others see this too. I would hate to feel as if anyone feels unsafe in Lismore.
Xian, my dearest husband, is often absent these days. We have spoken on this and of my needs and desires, and indeed his own while he is away, we have agreed that we might enjoy others once more. While I feel some worry about this overall I feel happy I can accept others into my bed and between my legs. My loins ache far to much for such pleasures to deny it or simply use my fingers. I merely hope we can stay together and remain focused on one another through that, when we see one another my only desire is for him and no one else
I wonder if this makes me a bad person, I certainly hope not
